Stop and Drink

Art by Jeremy Fenske

Sometimes when you do a blog, you get caught up in doing a blog.

Must. write. new. post…

But the whole point of this blog is to share my walk with God, with you. And it turns out that you can’t force that through grammar or eloquence, or through schedules.

I sat staring at my screen, so tired after a long week yet wanting to write something to encourage you all. What came to me? Nothing. And then, more nothing.

What was wrong? But as I went back over the past days in my mind, I realized that my to-do list had been in the diver’s seat and time with the Lord wasn’t on the agenda. I’d forgotten to be still with Him, to just enjoy Him and His word.

I took a moment there at my computer to pray. Then the very familiar image on my computer desktop jumped out at me. I saw the horse dipping his mouth into the peaceful waters, and the Lord whispered to my heart, If you’re thirsty, stop and drink.

Even just in that invitation, refreshment flooded my soul. That was His voice in my heart, the most comforting voice in all the cosmos. The voice that spoke life into existence, moving in me, calling to me.

What have I been doing all this time??

Enjoy Him friends! Enjoy moments with Him, seeking Him, dwelling on scripture. Stop everything and drink.

And if He feels far, reflect on Psalm 42. As He has always been faithful, so He will continue to be for you.

As the deer pants for water, so I long for you, O God. psalm 42:1

The Lie of the City

Photo by Drew Coffman on Unsplash

I live in Los Angeles, in the heart of movieland. It’s a restless city, a city that attracts dreamers from all over the world looking to land the next big part or movie deal or writing gig. This city calls to us, tells us to work hard, never miss an opportunity, sacrifice it all, and then you can achieve those dreams.

But I was thinking about the message of my city and started to wonder – do we know what are true opportunities and what are dead ends (or worse)? How often are we running ourselves into the ground for nothing? Is achieving our dreams a goal that is even in line with God’s kingdom?

Who is guiding our lives – Jesus, or self?

Lately God has been calling me into times of rest, and it usually bumps up against the call of my culture to achieve, and never let up until I do. Which inner voice do I listen to? They war inside me! Eventually I realized that what I choose shows where my allegiance really lies.

Are my dreams the Lord of my life? Or is God – the one who died for me?

Taking time to rest in obedience to God’s call is a way to worship Him, and to show the world Who He is. He is the God who leads us into good things in His timing, the God who says “I made you for rest and not only work,” the Good Shepherd who leads us beside quiet waters, restores our souls, protects us from the enemy.

“The Lord is my shepherd, I lack nothing.
He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,
he refreshes my soul.
He guides me along the right paths
for his name’s sake.
Even though I walk
through the darkest valley,
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.”
Psalm 23:1-4

We can lay our personal goals aside at the good feet of Him who loves us so deeply for a time, and obey the call to rest.

Do you feel driven to achieve something? What do you need to lay down at God’s feet today so that you can truly rest?

Be Still

Photo by Tanvi Malik on Unsplash

Recently I was praying over many heavy things, scared that if I didn’t pray hard enough or say the right words that everything would come crashing down; that what I feared would happen would become reality.

But the Lord broke into my fearful thoughts.

Be still and know that I am God. I will be exalted among the heavens, I will be exalted in all the earth. (Psalm 46:10)

Lord of heaven and earth. That’s who I am talking to. That’s whose shoulders these prayers are falling upon.

Be still.

Does God need my help? No. He only asks for my faith in His goodness, in His timing, in His care for me and for others.

What do you need to be still from today? Meditate on His power, His goodness, any attribute that comes to mind, and then lay your concern at His feet!


The morning commute to school…

You know those days where you wake up and you feel like you’re already behind with everything you need to do? And the panic you feel makes you just a little bit crazy because I have to do all the things!

That was my morning. AND, people seemed to be driving like it was their first time behind the wheel. Our normally very skilled crossing guard was off her game directing traffic at the busy school intersection. The red lights just. wouldn’t. change. and my GPS seemed to be directing me to every. single. one. of. them.


(some of you are very glad right now you don’t live in Los Angeles…)

At one of those red lights, a few angry outbursts in, I finally I realized the state of my heart was a little…not OK…and paused.

Lord, what is wrong with me? I feel like something is cutting me off from You.

Then came the nudge, the reminder in my heart– I needed to offer my day (and its demands) to the Maker and Sustainer of Everything. To Jesus. He alone knows what truly needs to be done today, and when, and for whom. Taking everything on myself was too much for me — I couldn’t even control something as small as a traffic light!

But by faith I could trust HIM to work it all out, to guide me to what truly needs to be done.

Have you ever tried to live this way? Take a moment with the Lord and tell Him the day is His, laying aside your will and desires as of secondary importance, and ask Him to put on your heart whatever HE knows you need to do at any given moment. And then follow the flow of His leading.

“Seek first His kingdom and His righteousness and all these things will be added to you as well.” Matthew 6:33